I noticed that there is a lot I didn't know about my family history. It's pretty interesting. I loved just listening to the stories and learning about my great grandparents and grandparents. I hope I get to learn more soon. I went to see my abuelos this morning. I love seeing my grandma. I can just talk in spanish with her forever. Lately I have been listening a lot to my tejano music again. Enjoying singing. Everyone remembers me singing at the restaurant and at the anniversary party, at my abuela's birthday. I miss that. They always ask why I didn't pursue singing. I wish I could've, but my stupid fear just got in the way. At least I can still sing to myself and my family. =) It's funny because I know I am always arguing with somebody about me not being mexican. But my grandma is mexican and I just love listening to her and what she has to say. I might not really be a mexican because i wasn't born in mexico but I must remember that I do come from a family of mexicans. Their lives have been so hard all their lives. I went to see my uncle yesterday (my mom's brother) and he made me feel really good. I have three cousins who have or are about to have babies. They are all a year younger than me. And he just looked at me and said he was so proud of me and that I was very smart and that I needed to get my education because not everyone has that opportunity. Especially coming from a mexican heritage. I would be the first in my family to get a college education. There are only two out of about 10 cousins that don't have babies and I am glad I am one of them. I have made a lot of stupid mistakes this past year and I know I have been given a second chance. I can't mess it up. I WONT. I have to make my family proud. I couldn't believe the things I learned. My mom and her siblings used to have to travel to california to work just to get food for their family. My mom's dad was a horrible man who treated my abuela like crap and even hit her. He had mistresses everywhere. He supposedly had almost like 20 kids. Six with my abuela, about 7 with his first wife, maybe like 5 with his second wife, and who knows how many with other mistresses. There is so much I can say, but I'll save it for another time. All my life I have grown up through a lot of hard times, but I am glad because that just made me stronger. I have lived without electrcity sometimes, I have lived without having food for a couple weeks, without hot water for about 3 years, and so much more. I mean wow, when I think about my life I can't believe it. This is the all the motivation I need to keep pushing me to work harder.
Como vives en el cielo,
vives en nuestro corazones
(Te amo abuela)
Como vives en el cielo,
vives en nuestro corazones
(Te amo abuela)
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