I am so confused right now. I don't know what I want. I mean I keep thinking about different things. Not my usual thoughts and not the things that usually get me in a bad mood. But other things. Dont really want to explain right now. At least not till i have figured or done some of it. Hmm... I have so much to consider and only a month and a half to do so. I think this time is going to go by fast. A part of me wants it to but the other part doesn't so that I can get all this stuff done. Why do I always have to think about so many things. I feel like these past couple of months I just cant let things be. i feel like I have to take things into my own hands. I control my life and what goes on in it. So what do I do now?