i mean seriously you have to be fucking kiddin me. Yesterday was so messed up it was like someone was trying to get me to commit suicide or something. i don't know wut to do or how to stay strong. my mom told me God's testing me and that i can't give up but everytime i get up something knocks me back down. i've been spending a lot of time just crying these past two days but where is that gonna get me? no where!!! i gotta do something and FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!

this has been the worst day of my life. hopefully it will end better.......

I don't think i had ever been so pissed before in my life. I swear i was ready to hit something. (Maybe i am losing control of certain things...)