August 05, 2006 12:05am

How can a person be so happy yet so scared? As my feelings grow stronger my fear only seems to increase. I'm stuck with no clue of what to do. They say "it's better to have loved than to have never loved at all." What about the people who have loved and have felt one of the greatest pains in the world; a broken heart... I had given up on relationships and this miracle called love, this unexplainable thing called a soulmate, partner, ones other half, but as my faith slowly seemed to dim away God brought someone special into my life. I am soooo happy right now but for some reason that only scares me more. It just seems too good to be true. I feel like something is just waiting to snatch it away from me. I've given my love, my heart, my everything before only to be knocked down. Now I've seemed to put a wall up. Keeping myself hidden so that I can escape that pain. I feel so comfortable with him that at times I want to break that wall but then I remember my fear. The other night I was abou to do something more so say something but I stopped myself and left only this phrase replaying in my mind, " a promise too deep!"